What a weekend to be down... but we are back and that's all that matters! It's been quite the emotional roller coaster this weekend, baby joy mixed with internet frustration. Quite the combo of highs and lows.
After an agonizing long time of her pressing the baby further into my bladder, she turned us all around and let Lucas hop up on to the bed with me for our "tour". We saw the baby's back, it's face, and the baby even gave us a "thumbs up" from in there. A natural SCUBA diver in the making!
Then she showed us the baby's legs... and pointed out the baby's bottom.. and put an arrow between the baby's legs.. AND....AND.... The damn phone started ringing.. and ringing.. and the tech says "Oh, excuse me. Let me get that."
As she answers the phone, we all stare at the screen and try to decipher what we see there. At this point, my mom and I were convinced we saw a little penis between those legs, but really - who the hell knows?!
The tech comes back, laughs and says "Now where was I?" Obviously u/s tech humor that is lost on the rest of at the moment. Then she begins to type...
We are having a girl. We are all seeing PINK. Two boys would have been amazing, but to have one of each...I was in shock.
You may remember, if you've been around here for awhile, that my beloved Grandma Alyce passed away in March 2006. For such a healthy older woman, it came too suddenly for our family. While she loved her 3 great grandsons (Lucas and my cousin Jenny's 2 boys), she really wanted a great granddaughter. Just days before she passed, my Grandma reach over to my cousin and said "When I get to heaven, I'm going to send you and Beth baby girls.." This was her dying promise.
I really didn't get into here, but Jason and I actually started trying to get pregnant this time around last August. Getting pregnant with Lucas was too easy. We kept thinking "oh, you never know how long it will take..might as well try and see.." and BAM! 3 weeks later I was gestating. It was so easy that we were amazed that we were responsible enough that we never got pregnant before. Of course, we assumed it would be the same this time around. I assumed that by last September we would be on our way to Baby 2. The months started floating by.. no big deal really, we actually held off a month in November/December time frame because we knew we were going to Vegas for my mom's birthday. Then January.. then February.. then I realized it had been about 6-7 months and I began to start to "think about it a little more" (i.e obsess and worry).
Then in March, a week shy of the one year anniversary of my Grandma's passing, I got what the internets world calls a "BFP" - A BIG FREAKING POSITIVE pregnancy test. A quick calculation shows a November due date. My Grandmother's bday was in November.
I got the chills.
And now, to find out this is a girl. Well.. wow. While I'm not a religious person, I do believe that we all have angels and people "out there" looking out for us. I think I knew in my heart of hearts that this was a baby girl. My pregnancy has been so different than it was with Lucas. But I would really not let myself feel one way or another, because really, whatever we got would have been a gift.
Of course, now that we know it is a girl...LET THE SHOPPING BEGIN!
WOW, we are in trouble, huh?