I need to publicly pat myself on the back here. I have point-obsessed now for just over 2 months, and am happily reporting that I am currently down 16.2 lbs.
I should be dancing on the ceiling and partying in the street, right? I should feel phenomenal. But, honestly, I don't. I felt better about myself when I hit the 12lb mark than when I exceeded the 15lbs one. Maybe it's because in the back of my mind I always thought I would look great if "I just lost 15 lbs".. I guess I've been lying to myself thinking that was all I really had to lose, but alas, I only needed to lose 15 lbs, um.. 15lbs ago?
And yes, I know, the whole "Give yourself a break, you just had a baby!" comment. And I did. And I note that. And I love her for helping me burn an additional 500 calories a day. But I guess I'm really just ready to feel good about myself again - something I haven't felt in a really long time.
The other interesting thing is the comments from people - the look of astonishment when I say that I've lost 16 lbs. The "Really? 16 lbs?!" Do they think I'm lying? Or they can not believe that I'm still so fat after losing roughly 10% of my body weight.
Honestly, I'm a little surprised also. 16lbs down I thought I would be needing a whole new wardrobe, I thought that I would be swimming in things.. and while everything is big on me, it's not unwearable big. It just looks like I'm wearing ill-fitting jeans.
Which, god forbid anyone ever thinks I don't wear correctly fitting jean.. I may lose my self-proclaimed "jean genius" title.